Morning Relaxing Music - Positive Feelings and Energy

When I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, I was in my thirties, married with a young family. I slowly deteriorated and drifted in and out of depression - why me...why now...will I be healthy enough to enjoy life with my kids as they grow up?

I'm pretty positive on the whole, but inside, I didn't manage those feelings very well.

I'm not sure if meditation or music like this would have helped, but I wish I had tried it. They are certainly helping life taste sweet now! 

Have you any stories about how you cope or have coped with similar 'Why me?' feelings?